Logged: 08/26/18
As I sit here I open "The Complete Yoga Book" by James Hewitt. This is the first book we're supposed to read in my yoga teacher training. As I start with page 1, I slowly moved to page 2 and finally make it to page 3, I realize that as I am reading I'm not understanding. I have had to reread the sentences over and over.
Words that I've never heard I cannot pronounce. Different language that I don't understand. I can't pronounce or do not know the meaning to I am not understanding what I'm supposed to be learning.
I become flustered, I become reactive, I want to put the book down & walk away. Say I can't do this. It's not worth it. This is too hard, too difficult. Why am I doing this? Why did I ever think that I could do this?
But as I want to do that, I pause, I breathe, I put the book down but only to reflect on why I am having a hard time with the text. The print is small. There's many words on one page. More words than you think should be on a page. Half of the words I don't understand.
So yes, am I discouraged? Am I flustered? Am I annoyed & pissed off? Angry? Fearful? Yes.
And in recognizing those feelings I am able to work past them, work through them, understand them, accept them and continue on this journey that I have set up for myself.
Will it be difficult? Hell Yeah! But will I succeed.
Yoga is YOUR practice, YOUR time, YOUR journey. Let it be what YOU need it to be. Step on your mat and Let it all Go.
Namaste