Alive. Purpose. Excitement. Nervous. Anxiety. Worry. Ego.
The moment I opened the box of course materials, my breathe was gone. My stomach hurt and a wave of uncertainty came washing over me.
What have I done? This is alot of books, DVD's and materials. I have to do how many essays? I haven't wrote one of those in over 10 years! And you want me to do what for 60 minutes?
As I read through the course syllabus, I started to doubt myself. What I was capable of. If I was ready. If this was the right thing for me to do, take on and work through, on - my- own.
I had decided to take the route of at home training from an accredited teaching program. Thousands of #yogis have taken this route with great success. Working full time and the cost of this compared to an actual class was the defining factor.
But at this very moment, looking at all this material, reading over what was expected of me, I was second guessing myself, doubting myself and I truly believed in that moment that all the naysayers, the doubters and haters were right. Who can become a great #yogateacher from no hands on experience, no hands on guidance, or teaching?
With a deep breathe, I put all the course material in a nice, high, pile and walked away. Leaving it there, in plain sight, so that it could acclimatize, if you will into my world. My environment. And sink into my being. As we were going to get along, one way or another.
This morning as I got ready for work, I picked up one of the books and flipped through it. Not letting my eyes stop too long on anything in particular. But just feel the book in my hands, letting my brain work up to actually soaking in the knowledge, the truths and the love that in the next few months I will come to know and fall in love with #yoga all over again.
I checked my ego today. Left it on the floor. Walked away from it and told it to hit the road because it't home was no longer with me.
Yoga is YOUR practice, YOUR time, YOUR journey. Let it be what YOU need it to be. Step on your mat and Let it all Go.
*Disclaimer: These are my own, personal, honest opinions/practice. This post was not sponsored. YogatationCa purchased all items themselves. YogatationCa is not a certified Yoga Teacher and will not be held liable for any recommendations or information provided. This post is designed for educational purposes only and is not engaged in rendering medical advice, legal advice, or professional services. Therefore, try/practice at your own risk. Always consult your doctor before trying a new exercise.